The semester is FINALLY coming to an end. I can't stress what a pain this semester has been. What I can't grasp is how overwhelming school seemed to be in comparison to a few years ago. Somehow I managed twice as much when I was finishing my bachelors degree and was still able to pull off all A's. This time, not only am I not going achieve all A's, but I don't even care! In fact, I have an A in one of my classes. However, I have yet to turn in a 10 page final. I calculated my grade and realized I only need to get a 6% to get a C- (D does not equal degree in my case. However, C does!). I have absolutely zero desire to complete this paper, so I'm seriously contemplating doing a "half-assed" job (as my dad would say) and turn in a bare minimum paper. Thats how little desire I have left in me. Am I too old for school? Do I have to much on my plate? Or maybe I am prioritizing fun before school. If thats the case, I don't regret that at all. You only live once.
On another note, I've been subbing lately. The other day I had a humongous class of 6th graders. Yikes. I had to put my foot down with a couple of them. If corporal punishment wasn't illegal in schools, one of the girls would've received a swift kick in the butt. And yes, I mean my foot. But in the end, I stood my ground and beat her at her own game. At one point, I assigned vocab words for them to work on; define the words and write 2 sentences for each. One kid actually asked, "what do you mean by define?" Yes. It was a LONG day.
Yesterday I subbed in a 3rd grade class. This was one of the low income schools which have a volunteer grandparent program. This classroom had an old lady (probably in her 70's) who volunteers 3 days a week to tutor the kids and assist the teacher. While I admire the dedication, the grandma was just plain mean. At one point she stood up and yelled "SHUT UP!" in her meanest Cruella Deville-esque screach to the entire class. I didn't even think the kids were being that bad!
Ok, so no more procrastinating. I have to put 25% effort into 1/4 of a 10 page research paper and the same (or maybe less) effort into a lab project thats due soon, so I can make it to a party we have tomorrow night. Yes, deep down there is a teeny weeny part of me that can't stand giving up that A, but I'm burying it so far down so that I won't be able to hear it.
This semester has been hard for me, too. But, like you, I question whether it would have been as difficult had I not made as much time for fun as I did. Two New Kids concerts, wine walk, trip home, one friend visiting, one boyfriend visiting, a trip to Seattle... oh, and derby, which takes up loads of time, but keeps me sane. A trade-off? :)
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